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Saturday, October 10, 2020

Lurk in Silence



They watch, they sit in silence . . . 

still broken bits

no speech

. . .  from their lips

no "thanks"

not even an emoji kiss


it breaks me

BREAK THE SILENCE!

you "heard me," saw my words

why not? 

why - do - I?

do I not deserve?


does it hurt to forgive

& list

those things still trapped inside you

as you peak & as you ponder

you haven't; 

you don't persist


I speak to all those lurking

watching behind the scenes

the ones I reach out to

but still. . . and yet

I'm mean?


Who told you not to speak

that silence is your speech

that meek and minimal words

the voice of the unheard?


[Does my sassiness upset you?

Why are you beset with gloom?

'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells

Pumping in my living room]

~  Maya Angelou - Still I rise


This piece is to help those understand that no one is perfect, everyone makes mistakes . . . 

But if you never express your hurt, what right do you have to consciously dismiss the love of others, their vulnerability to you . . . their accountability and most importantly,

the time they cared & inspired YOU. 


You don't win by your silence.

You win by connecting to your heart, your true self. 

That's confidence!


hate me

rate me

curse me

stare -

dig holes deeper

with desperate glares


make fun

move on

miss me no more

wait and watch

admire me . . . score!

fake the funk 

you silent ones

hold the gun

shoot & run

black me

black one

black girl power

still standing strong

no "give up" hour


For those who feel like I feel sometimes . . . ignored & dismissed

I challenge you to do thee most difficult thing . . . 

continue to spread your LIGHT & your LOVE

accepted or not

#moveDEEPER

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~ deeply out ❤

Monday, September 28, 2020

in my solace

I scour in the night for solace

protecting my bleeding heart

hoping someone hears me

and gives me back my start

I started over today 

and yesterday, and everyday in between

I'm scared as all get out

as scared as one could be

I drink away my sorrows

I sometimes burst into tears

knowing that I have nothing

I am nothing

 . . . this is my fear.

Stay in the game & CHANGE the game or stay in the game & WIN the game?

Today's Inspiration

Could you buy me a day
In your life 
When I'm wearing the clothes 

That you wear, 
And could you give me your dimes for a day 
And just for one day take my place 

See mama says that I am beautiful, yeah 
And I am lovely the way that I am 
But if I am so sweet 
Why won't life 
Just give me 
What you have
What you have 
What you have

Or can I get away with
Being you for a day
Oh I wonder if I can

Put me in a Box 
For a little while
Tomorrow
Take me out, again

Or am I already
As lovely as You
Are you in my window pane
Looking back at me
Saying, Here I am 
Girl,
You're Beautiful

Could be that I am just too afraid
To become who I already am
Could it be that the life 
That was spoken to me
Is indeed in my spirit, man, Oh

Mama said touch the sky with your heels 
And to fly on the wings of the Lord
Could I only believe that 
It is inside of me
To be free
To be free
To be free

Or can I get away with
Being you for a day
Oh I wonder if I can

Put me in a Box 
For a little while
Tomorrow
Take me out, again

Or am I already
As lovely as You
Are you in my window pane
Looking back at me
Saying, Here I am 
Girl,
You're Beautiful

Chrisette Michele
____________________

Stay in the game & CHANGE the game or stay in the game & WIN the game?

. . . just STAY

~ deeply out