. . . for a reason

 

Tragedy from heartbreak.

 

More so, the heartbreak that inspires creativity.

 

The sucky thing about this is . . . Why do we have to go through something in order for us to become our most creative selves? Why does it come down to the point where you're in the midst of tragedy? 

Speaking for myself. . . I can write more. I can journal more. I can create pieces, dance pieces that are worth acknowledging . . . why do I feel like the tragedy that I have, the feeling of heartbreak that I feel. . . "Is for a reason?"

 

Yes, everything happens for a reason. We've heard that cliche time and time over and over again. But maybe it is though.

It's hard to really accept that. Everything happens for reason, but when you're in the midst of that reason, it's hard to accept - That reason. Why did that happen to me? Why did that have to happen? Why did it go so far? Why? Why? Why? Why, why, why am I not OK yet? Why are THEY ok? Why am I in this place . . . God? (for my believers)

 

I did my best. I tried my best. I tried my hardest. I received the positivity. I worked hard at it. I never thought that I would experience the place that I'm in right now. But my writing has gotten stronger. 

Maybe it was a story I needed to tell . . .

And in order to tell that story, I needed to go through everything that has happened for a reason.

 

the B in the A

The beauty in the ashes...

...such an interesting phrase 

it’s twofold: we all know what beauty is 

we can walk down the street and just see some flowers blooming, the sun is shining people are outside sitting in the park, everybody just living their lives and feeling good about themselves 

then you know what the ashes are 

the ashes are  those dark moments, those dirty moments, those moments that you don’t wanna show people 

BUT what’s great about this phrase is that beauty in the ashes to me means that you are able to take a negative situation and turn it into a positive situation

as hard as it is to change your focus into believing yourself again and not think that you have failed but knowing that 

"No, this happened for a reason" 

what's hard is. . . understanding what that reason is for you

- to focus on yourself 

- your self-care 

- focus on your own business

- not give your talents away 

- to see where your anger is coming from 

- to see how passionate you 

- to inspire other people to speak up for themselves 

- to acknowledge that you didn’t make all the right decisions 

- to hold your own self accountable on some shit 

there is beauty in there

Beauty in the ashes such a beautiful phrase

4/18/21

6:28pm

grace

“The worst betrayal is the betrayal to yourself”

“Grace is when you can put your hand on that person for just a min...an energy goes through you and calms them down” 

“Grace is a power that comes in to change a moment to something better.”

“I hold myself accountable” 

4/13/21

12:35am