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Wednesday, November 11, 2020

so I write

I write when I'm not having a good day

I write when I feel alone

I write when I'm drinking alone, in the middle of the day

looking out the window... 

to the sunshine, I don't feel 

I write


I write because I want to be someone . . . one day

someone who has

someone who is

someone who ain't . . . that

someone of value

someone of prestige

someone people admire

someone people see

seen

not unseen

not the braille on my chest


conflict 

conflict messaging

conflicting messages 

in distortion 

I write


I write in my feelings

I write to calm down

I write to move forward

...to get through the day

I write    to     accept     ME

all that I am

I write

and I write 

and I write

enough said.

Saturday, October 10, 2020

Lurk in Silence



They watch, they sit in silence . . . 

still broken bits

no speech

. . .  from their lips

no "thanks"

not even an emoji kiss


it breaks me

BREAK THE SILENCE!

you "heard me," saw my words

why not? 

why - do - I?

do I not deserve?


does it hurt to forgive

& list

those things still trapped inside you

as you peak & as you ponder

you haven't; 

you don't persist


I speak to all those lurking

watching behind the scenes

the ones I reach out to

but still. . . and yet

I'm mean?


Who told you not to speak

that silence is your speech

that meek and minimal words

the voice of the unheard?


[Does my sassiness upset you?

Why are you beset with gloom?

'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells

Pumping in my living room]

~  Maya Angelou - Still I rise


This piece is to help those understand that no one is perfect, everyone makes mistakes . . . 

But if you never express your hurt, what right do you have to consciously dismiss the love of others, their vulnerability to you . . . their accountability and most importantly,

the time they cared & inspired YOU. 


You don't win by your silence.

You win by connecting to your heart, your true self. 

That's confidence!


hate me

rate me

curse me

stare -

dig holes deeper

with desperate glares


make fun

move on

miss me no more

wait and watch

admire me . . . score!

fake the funk 

you silent ones

hold the gun

shoot & run

black me

black one

black girl power

still standing strong

no "give up" hour


For those who feel like I feel sometimes . . . ignored & dismissed

I challenge you to do thee most difficult thing . . . 

continue to spread your LIGHT & your LOVE

accepted or not

#moveDEEPER

(make sure you CLICK on the highlighted sections)


~ deeply out ❤

Monday, September 28, 2020

in my solace

I scour in the night for solace

protecting my bleeding heart

hoping someone hears me

and gives me back my start

I started over today 

and yesterday, and everyday in between

I'm scared as all get out

as scared as one could be

I drink away my sorrows

I sometimes burst into tears

knowing that I have nothing

I am nothing

 . . . this is my fear.