NOSTALGIA

I often wonder what headspace I was in when I created different pieces.

Why did I make those choices?

Who or what was inspiring me to be and to dance at my highest level?

Then...

the question becomes, how did I lose these things?

What was the change'?

When did it happen?

Why did it happen?

Is it still possible that - that person is still within me?

Or am I supposed to accept the fact that I'm older and I just don't move like that anymore? Not from a physicality standpoint, but from a "who's body was I in?" I didn't know that I could even move like that.

So where is this all coming from?

NOSTALGIA (sounds like a stylish social influencer lol)

Yup! I did the thing that you're not supposed to do. 

Look backward.

But I did. 

so sorry :(

And what pray tell happened? There was an awwwww, but there was also a WHOA! Damn you were good!

Then, I got into my head and asked more questions . . . 

Did I leave LA too soon? Could all the negative experiences I'm currently going thru and have been through in the past few years, been avoided if I just fought it out a little bit longer. If I just stayed and had fun in the sun and allowed the warm weather and conscious hikes to change me? (Because the sun makes us happy right?) Warm weather makes us less cranky, esp when it's that nice warm weather, with the cool breeze and you're not sweating through your fit. 

This question comes up again . . . Are we supposed to go back? I asked this in a previous entry. Is my life more together than it was back then? Or should I go back? 

Why?

Because judging from those videos, I was for damn sure, slimmer, highly creative and put out lots of work, more than I'm doing right now.

So what is this entry about?

NOSTALGIA, our longing and affection for the past & the many questions that come along with it. 

How do you handle NOSTALGIA?

Well . . . I think it's best to ask yourself certain questions, to find out more about who you are. And looking back at times isn't always so bad. 

Take those good memories, inspiring memories, and just SMILE for a moment. 

~deeply out ❤

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Heres's some Joy Oladokun Music for you to get through some nostalgia :)